Trust

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Hey all!
For me, this past summer has been one of learning and one of growth. God has really been working on my heart in little ways and in big ways. 

One of the biggest and most apparent ways is how He’s been showing me to better trust in Him and in others. It’s always been such a struggle for me to open up to people and really connect. For those who don’t know me very well, I tend to have a close group of friends who know what’s going on in my life and who I am when my guard is down but other than that, no one really knows a lot about me. Sure, I’m friendly and I love talking to people but the conversations I have are surface level and don’t really hold substance. People get to know the version of myself I choose to show them. Usually it’s the tidy, seemingly put together version. However, I’ll say it again, God has been really growing me in the ways I trust. As I’ve grown over the past few years I think I’ve found that the reason I don’t let myself be vulnerable with others is because of my underlying fear of being hurt or abandoned. While, it is true that opening up to someone puts you in a position to be hurt, I’ve found that especially as Christians, if we want our love to come off as genuine and the stories of Christ we share to come off as life-changing, we have to be willing to be open and honest about the things we’ve gone through ourselves. I know personally it’s a lot more meaningful and impactful to be given advice from someone who isn’t afraid to share where they received that knowledge. 

As well as being more trusting in others, I’ve grown to trust God more in every aspect of my life. Me being me, I tend to try and control my life. I want to be able to plan for anything coming whether that be the worst case scenario or the best. I’ve always struggled handing control to God and letting Him take the reigns but this summer I realized how sidetracked and confused you become if you don’t let Him lead you. Even little things can take you away from where He wants you to be. In the end, His goal for you is far greater than you can imagine and it definitely beats anything you could achieve on your own. 

Anyways, those are my random thoughts for today.

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